I recently became unemployed. Even at 19, I am one who believes there is a reason for every event, every change– positive or negative.
While I was employed, I hadn’t picked up a paint brush in nearly 6 months. I had NO idea how big of a space my soul had because of this “loss”. If you are an artist, or breathe and dream art/creativity you know exactly what I am saying.
Men, it’s like not watching a single game of your favorite team all season. In the beginning you miss it, you crave the next time you will be able to sit down, put your feet up and watch a single game. But after a while, once a single season has past, you find yourself not craving it as much.
You convince yourself there are more important things in life- bigger responsibilities. And your biggest passion slowly works it’s way down your priority list.
This can relate to nearly any topic and any person in life.
This is where you feel like your lacking a part of yourself.
So today I got off the sofa, after being a poo-poo head about having no income, and sat up at my studio table. I opened my easel, pulled out the supplies – and I painted.
This is the result of a previous 6 months with out touching a brush.
There’s a part of me that definitely feels reopened, revived, and newly motivated.
My dream is to do this for life, a career. Not necessarily to make money, but to do what keeps me, me.
What I have learned the past couple years, after being 100% responsible for myself, is that I need to be as realistic as possible.
Just like any young lady, I dream of being married, to raise children, to provide for my family, and I and to have the oppertunity to explore, travel, and continue to check things off my bucket list.
SO– after saving money for over a year, I am only a few steps forward than where I started. But my wisdom has grown tremendously. I have decided I WILL work my ass off to become the best Elementary Art Teacher as possible. 🙂 I don’t know about you, but I remember my first art teacher’s face, her voice and her outlook on life; such an inspiration.
All in all, after today I learned to stay close to my heart, keep the doors open, continue with things that make you happy, and not to be cliche– live your life to the fullest. REALLY to LIVE YOUR LIFE to the FULLEST. It’s your life.
Don’t ever miss the chance to smile.
Much lovins,
meegs
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